Thursday, August 26, 2010

Ask, and ye shall recieve.

Right? After my (yet again) melodramatic post (I swear I'm not usually like this), I came across this blog that has me crying tears of joy.

A friend also sent me some encouraging words, and another verse to live by.

"And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them." Romans 8:28, NLT.

So, how's it going?

I'm starting to feel silly that we made the decision to share our decision to enter into our adoption journey with so many people in the midst of feeling so lost about the next step or direction. (Holy run-on sentence Batman.) Lots of well-meaning friends (and I really appreciate you!) have asked how the process is going and the short answer is that it's not really going anywhere at the moment.

I've tried searching the web for blogs, adoption laws, agencies, and forums. I really am searching for the good, because the bad seems to find people without even trying. There is an overwhelming amount of negative information about adoption out there. I've seen blogs of adopted adults that still feel lost and can't seem to find their identity. I've read horror stories about failed adoptions and years in court. I've found blogs that talk about the amazing blessing that adoption can be for the parents and children alike. Yet, they still need to remind the reader of the pain and torment and struggles.

I've never really been described as a big optimist or anything, but I just can't seem to believe that it is all that bad. I guess I want to find the happy idealistic yet realistic stories. I guess I need the encouragement. So, if you see them out there, send them my way. I've seen some, but there have got to more out there.

We haven't started the homestudy yet. There are different prices for international v. domestic and we haven't decided which way we are going yet. I continue to pray for guidance.

A big part of me still feels like there has got to be a toddler in the US who is supposed to be a part of our family. Part of me wants to go to Korea. I just don't know. . .

Monday, August 23, 2010

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

Is this a sign?

I've been praying for guidance, and I'm really trying not to over-think things. That's not easy for me, because I tend to over-analyze and take my time making decisions. I was thinking that if we adopted an older child from Korea (or any other country really) that they may already speak the language (Hangul) and it would ease the transition if I learned more of the language. My current knowledge of Hangul is basically "yeoboseyo" (hello) and "kam-sa-ham-ni-da" (thank you). I remember a few other words from our time in Korea, but that is about it.

For anyone reading this who doesn't know, I am a chiropractor. I work in a small office with one other doctor (who does not speak Hangul). Today, an Asian man walked into the office and asked for the doctor who speaks Korean. Our CA (chiropractic assistant) told him that we did not have a doctor who speaks Korean. He asked again, stating that he heard there was a doctor here who speaks Korean. Our CA again said that neither of the doctors speak Korean. The man left and seemed confused. I don't know of any doctors in the area who speak Korean.

So, what do you think: sign, coincidence, both? I'm a big believer in signs from above.